My husband of 23yrs left me at the begining of december and just under two week,s ago he moved his whore in and basically screwed my life up,we had been together for 25yrs+ yes we had our problem,s just like any other couple,well to cut a long story short i have been dealing with acute chronic pain and cancer as well as kidney failure and i suffer severe depression,he tell,s me he needs to move out cuz we,re more like brother and sister than husband and wife,i asked him to come with me for councelling but no he,d made up his mind,what he didn,t tell me was he,d been e-mailing his whore for almost a year! he asked in november if i minded him going to a school reunion,so i said go for it as he,d been in tne army for 27yrs and had lost touch with all his friends,for just under a year he,d started calling me names especally if he was fed up,he,d tell me you don,t understand english! or why don,t you listen!but i didn,t realise he was seeing someone,how stupid i was,we had been i thought happy but he wasen,t because i couldn,t have sex with him as often as he wanted due to chronic pain,when he came back from his reunion he was on a hjgh and it was really good to have him so relaxed and happy,however he,d only been in the house ten minutes when i said something he didn,t like he started shouting at me,so i finally said are you having an affair? thats when he dropped the bombshell that he,d been speaking to a girl from when he was at school,i was stunned and then he told me he needed to move into his own place to work out what he wanted,like a fool i helped him! how bloody stupid i was! two week,s ago his whore moved in with him and i am totally devastated because he has always been so honest and i thought we could work it out and we,d be ok,as he had post tramatic stress syndrom and he had treated me and our son like dirt but i put up with his verbal abuse etc,and i made sure i kept our son away from his dad when he was going through that yet still he has hurt me,i never used to let any man treat me like dirt yet this man has torn my heart to shred,s for what? all because i couldm,t give him what he wanted when he wanted it! i have had enough now he wants us to be friends and he keep,s telling me we,re both getting on,why tell me! it,s bad enough that i have to start all over again without him thinking he can waltz in and out if my life when he feel,s like it! i am in bit,s i have started cutting my arm,s again and i know we can never ever be together again cuz i wouldn,t trust him again,i keep wondering why am i here? whats the point in going on? i used to be so happy and now i am wondering what have i done this past 25yrs he has not only messed my head up but also our son,s,he keep,s saying he,ll come back but there is no way i,d ever have him back cuz i dunno where his whore has been nether does he,why should i bother why? isn,t it bad enough that i,ve got bloody cancer and all the other crap that i,ve got and this man is playing silly buggers with my head i feel so very lonely all i wanted in life was to be happy and spend my life with what i thought was my soulmate how wrong i was! what did i do so wrong? i feel so very very alone right now
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