hey all i dunno if u have read my last posts about my misrible life but here is the latest chapter to it all. yesterday i came home from work, brought the bin up because it was bin day, had a look in the mail box, u know the usual stuff, open up the door sort my work gear out, turn on my computer to check e-mails and settle in to reply to my friend. yeah ok so far yeah? well i thought so too, my sister came around and we had plans to go out nd do a bit of cricket training and see my nanna then my mum came home, and well that was the end of my good day, she started bitching that i couldnt even open the windows and that i do nothing and was yelling at me for not having made dinner andhow im never home all i do is sleep and eat here and that if i dont start doing more i can find another place to live and well i have no where else haha so its here or the street? yeah welcome home mum. i cant remember all of wot she said but thats pretty much the gist of it. i got a call from my sister later on because she had a talk with my mum, and she was sayig that my mum thought i was only staying for a little bit ( because i was with my partner living in our own place but we broke up in feb last year) so i came back here but thought we would get back together, obviously that didnt happen so she is shitty because she cant do her drugs and have her little bed buddies over when she likes and her stupid friends. she doesnt want to have to worry about how im feeling or wot im doing, because im 22 she thinks that i dont need a mum anymore and i should just be on my own so she can have the house to herself. y i havent killed myself yet? i dont really know to tell u the truth haha. im so very near that edge its scary. but seriously how much am i sposed to take? its getting rediculas now on the plus side i didnt get hit this time.
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