How does anxiety/depression make you feel? I’ve struggled with the answer. My short answer is…horrible. The most horrifying feeling I can imagine. Regular people have no idea. They can’t understand something this dark and cruel.
Anxiety makes my heart pound, my mind race, my head hurt and my stomach turn. My body feels like its burning up and freezing at the same time. I’m always so cold. Depression is harder to describe. It’s like existing in the darkest pit of Hell. No light, no escape, no hope. It’s a sick feeling. Seasick but with no relief in sight.
I’m writing this post in the evening. For some reason I feel a bit better in the evening. I’m not sure if it’s a relief or just a sick joke. You start to think that maybe, just maybe you’re doing better. Maybe the meds are finally kicking in. Maybe you will wake up tomorrow and feel better. I go to be hopeful but anxious. 5am greets me with anxiety shaking my body. All I can do is silently moan in pain as I try to face another nightmare. Another morning where I struggle to work. My mind foggy. No focus. Trying to do a simple task feels like pushing a boulder up the highest mountain. I finish my simple task and look at the clock…6am.
God please get me through another day. Please let the meds start to work. Please don’t let me lose my mind.
I’m just so freaking sad I hate this. I had to come off my meds as I mentioned in and man alive is it messing with me. I just feel paranoid, depressed, worn out. Worst of all I feel alone. I hate that I have to ride this out for now. I wish there was something I could do other than just spend all my time trying to forget reality.... I feel like I’ve taken many steps backward and like I’m...
Today is such a bad day my heart is broken my bf of 7 years is going away for an entire year over something so stupid...im so scared im all alone and with him gone im going to lose everything we worked sp hard for i just wish this was not happening i wish this was all a dream but its notit was storming out really bad today and when me and my friend were driving all i kept wishing for was to get...