i've never been to a doctor so I've never been diagnosed. How do you know if its real or if its just you? How do you know that you don't just make it all up. Maybe I just want to be sad because its easier, its a good excuse not to do the things i want to do and sometimes its just seems easier if i let myself be depressed. Sometimes its hard for me not to just blame it on myself. How do I know that its not all my fault and how do I convince myself of this?
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