EVERYONE SAYS THAT IT IS SO EASY TO GET OVER FEELING LIKE YOU JUST WANT TO DIE BUT I CAN'T SEEM TO PUSH THE FEELING THAT I JUST WANT TO DIE ASIDE I THINK ABOUT IT EVERY MIN AND WITH EACH PASSING MIN. THE WANTING OF IT JUST GROWS STRONGER I MEAN I CALLED A SUICIDE HOTLINE LASTNIGTH BUT HUNG UP BEFORE I GOT ON THE PHONE WITH ANYONE BECAUSE I WAS AFRAID THAT SOMEONE MIGHT FIND OUT WHERE I LIVE AND COME TAKE ME AWAY AND PUT ME IN THE HOSPITAL.I HATE FEELING LIKE THIS BUT I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO DO.
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