I think you have the right attitude honey which is always the foundation to happiness so go you! You'll find something a lot more quickly if you're looking for it if that makes any sense; when you're depressed there's definately a tendency to sit back and moan so glad to see you're trying!

As for friends it will come to you, I promise. This could be the start of something new for you, enjoy it ^_^ x

Do you have any hobbies or interests? Maybe you could find some kind of group you could join to be around new people. An Art Society, a town Historical Society. Readings or discussion groups at the library. Anything that will get you out to meet new people and give you the chance to find new friends.

I understand forgetting how to make friends. From experience girlfriend, just reach out. When you meet people--get their numbers. Yes ask for their number and ask them to coffee, lunch whatever. Seek out people that are positive, stable and non-toxic and you will get that inkind. No matter how uncomfortable you are--"fake it 'till you make it!"

You have to come out of those comfort zone.

As far as job and family. Job--you can take classes online. There are als many tests online that help guide you to a career you may be happy with. But reach out their too. Even if you do something like Mary Kay or buy a camera and learn how to take pictures. You get the gist.

As far as your family. They are never in control in making you happy so do not burden them with it. Your son is your forever, try to seek out the good. Try to find some commom ground and force yourself to rekindle the relationship in a deeper way.

As far as your hubby. Counseling would be good if you really feel that uglyness toward him. But even there too, maybe you can write down some positive traits he has and build on them. Otherwise, when the time is right--perhaps a more permanent decision will need to be made?

You will find what you seek.It will not be easy. You have to be "up" for it everyday. You have to break life-long patterns of thinking, and living. Sometimes it seems easier just to go back to what we know. And I think generally is. However, if you do, just know, you WILL get the same results. Nothing will change.

May I also suggest you read books along this subject, as well as when you are in your car, listen to books on tapes that will pump you with positive info. This you can control.

If the new bothers you, or brings you down--TURN IT OFF. If there is a person in your life that has "taken" all the time--wean yourself away from them. If family is on your nerves over the phone, politely say good-bye. These things are in your control...

Well, honey be proud that you have made this CHOICE. My favorite saying, "the choices you make, WILL dictate the life you lead." (Raising my glas of ice tea) "Here's to new friendships, happier days a positive, purposeful life!"

XOXO

this is what has helped me, not that i'm perfectly well, but things that helped me..

prayer counseling, art therapy, psychotherapy, emdr, support groups, friends, volunteering, and believing in myself..and positive thinking, and having a grateful heart

okay....believing in myself, positive thinking and being grateful are the hardest.....

but giving to others when i was really depressed helped me, because i was giving something to others...i volunteered at church and i volunteered at schools....sometimes i went to homeless shelters or food banks to help out..and that's where i met my friends....and it gave me some perspective about my life....