Somedays I am so restless I just want to crawl out of my skin and run away. Otherdays I am so detached from everything that I can't penetrate the world. Then there are times I need to be outside, just to be part of something bigger than me, but there are also times when I need to get away from it as I need privacy and space. I can't stand this waiting game, I just need some respite fro the meds, for the anxiety and darkness to lift slightly. I know it can happen, because I have already had some good afternoons or mornings, but its still taking time to kick in for good. Any advice on how to kill time or even use it constructively would be very much appreciated.
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