It is a very long and drawn out story about a friend of mine that I can not get over.. I know he is bad for me and we had fought and argued but he insists that I said something that I wouldn't ever have said no matter what my anger level was... In any event he told me tonight he doesn't care if I die and he kinda hopes that I do.... So I am offended and I am angry but I still have this love in my heart for him... How the hell do i let go of his detrimental ways that were doing nada but making me feel like a big ole bowl of dog doo....? I feel like I wanna cry but I just cant get it out in the open to cry... My chest is hurting very badly and I feel like I wanna just lay in bed and not get out..So what the heck am I gonna do about this mess I have gotten myself into.. I know that it takes two to tango and I have apologized and admitted my wrong doing in the argument... But he refuses to admit he was wrong at all.. and Now his Mama is looking for me to beat me up... I just wanna die.. this is too hard.... along with my granny being sick and in the nursing home, giving them hell and just being a wench bag to them... I cant take anymore... Lord Help ME!@ soon before I find a good way to go....
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