Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
My name is Chelli and I'm 17yrs old. I live with my b/f in a small appartment with my three cats. Right now my life is really bumpy. Bills, debt, living arrangements, no friends, no social life, no energy, no will. I know deep inside that everything is really fine and others have it much worse, but I just can't seem to ever get off my butt. Seems like every time I try im knocked down harder than before. Everytime I get up and face all my problems I do good for a day or two. Then something goes wrong and its all back down the drain. I find everything I do is an outlet from realy life whether it be drugs, the internet, smoking, tv, etc. All those things can be used wisely but I consume myself in everything I do just to escape. I never have any energy or will and feel worthless. Before I moved in with my boyfriend I lived in my room for a year and a half after dropping out of school. Everyday I felt guilt, fear and worry. Now I've lost the guilt and fear but I still can't do anything for myself, and I feel like I never will. Lately things have been going really really bad and the thought of depression is creeping up again. I've been medicated before and it had no effect and went into denial after that. But I'm really starting to think theres a problem. I know what I must do to change my life its finding the reasons and will to I can't seem to figure out. I just want to know how to move on with my life. Leave everything behind and have the want for a better life.
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I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
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I gave my 2 week notice last Friday 13th. Now to join you fine people in a life of leisure and nothing else to do but to look out for myself....is it just me or does that sound pretty boring? My goal was to live to retire and I guess having to take early retirement because of health reasons wasn't exactly the way I had planned things. I just can't stay in that building that is reeking mildew...
Finding the "will" won't happen right away, but it sounds like you're on your way. And I don't think it's about changing your life, it's more learning how to cope, how to see some good, and have a little trust in yourself. Those also take time. We can only move on once we've dealt w/ what's keeping us stuck. So what's going on? Where's the guilt and fear and worry coming from? When did all this start? Remember you've already done something for yourself, you came here. Feel free to lean on me if you need to talk. Message me and let me know what's up.
sometimes it helps to write down your goals.
first decide,just exactly what you want to do and write it down
make a list for short term goals,
and a list for long term goals,
as you achieve your short term goals,make new ones and write them down.
and the same for your long term goals, it is not enough to say i want more,decide exactly what more is,and how to get it.
but if you are depressed you will need to see a doctor to get that under control first thing,because depression can hold you back from doing anything,try not to get overwhelmed trying to work on too many things at once or too much at once, it will take some time to reach your goals but you will if you stick with it.
but please take care of the depression first,it will be so much easier to move forward if you do that.the doctor may have to try you on several medications before you find the right one for you , we are all different and sometimes it takes a few tries to get the type and amount correct for you .
i hope i am explaining this right,
joyce
You might calling your dr. or local hospital to see if they know of any near you.
It has helped me so much to get on the road to recovery!! But believe me I certainly know how you feel!!
I send you love and prayers!!!!