i was feeling great for most of the day and now i just want to die again. out of nowhere, i just broke down and cryed for like 25 min and now all i can think about is grabbing a blade and having a hayday. why cant i just be happy? why cant i just give up and move past this? i hate myself for feeling this way. im just gunna go crawl in a dark place, curl into a ball and never come out.
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