Depression Support Group
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This is what I wrote and sent to my boyfriend today. No wonder he is thinking about leaving me.
why do i feel like this...the anxiety because he hasn't called. am I just bored or am i totally obsessed. I hate loving someone more than they love me...why do i let myself do this. it hurts so much that i just want to scream at the top of my lungs. I want someoen to feel how i feel just for a little bit so they can help me with this. nobody truly understands what i'm going through. am i stupid do i need to be put away. maybe i shouldn't have anyone in my life. i'm so out of control...i come across as someone who is in control but i'm really not. i try to control everyone else but myself because I just don't know how to. i keep checking my phone, my email, everthing!!! i hate this. aijofu;fhioeursea;oh zycxhzhxz8x9PYaX(YFhayg9yzfgz9yafh9p;
iijaiorfjioes i need someone to talk to maybe talk to him. ask him if he is going to stay with me forever or not so i can prepare myself now. i don't want to be blindsided...i need to know what's coming. by asking so many questions then i'm preparing myself. trust what is trust. no man has ever stayed with me how do i know this one will. do i let my guard down truly let it down. what if i get hurt.
its me its all me. if i just could get something else in my brain then i'd be better off. what should i do? do i have time to join a knitting group a book group something? keep my mind off things and be more interesting to others. i'm bored at work so my mind wonders...to bad places. to others it's bad places to me i just think that i'm doing them an honor by thinking about them and loving them so much. would everyone like to be thought about as much. what should i do. i can't help but wonder what he's thinking now about what i sent earlier. he didn't call right back..is he mad. going to end it. what goes on truly in his mind. am i a freak to him...someone to leave. i'm fjoijfoiaoojgek;ljatf/z.;hsaf idiot. nobody else feels the same things i do...or do they. are there other people like me? how do they control it. i love way too much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
why do i feel like this...the anxiety because he hasn't called. am I just bored or am i totally obsessed. I hate loving someone more than they love me...why do i let myself do this. it hurts so much that i just want to scream at the top of my lungs. I want someoen to feel how i feel just for a little bit so they can help me with this. nobody truly understands what i'm going through. am i stupid do i need to be put away. maybe i shouldn't have anyone in my life. i'm so out of control...i come across as someone who is in control but i'm really not. i try to control everyone else but myself because I just don't know how to. i keep checking my phone, my email, everthing!!! i hate this. aijofu;fhioeursea;oh zycxhzhxz8x9PYaX(YFhayg9yzfgz9yafh9p;
iijaiorfjioes i need someone to talk to maybe talk to him. ask him if he is going to stay with me forever or not so i can prepare myself now. i don't want to be blindsided...i need to know what's coming. by asking so many questions then i'm preparing myself. trust what is trust. no man has ever stayed with me how do i know this one will. do i let my guard down truly let it down. what if i get hurt.
its me its all me. if i just could get something else in my brain then i'd be better off. what should i do? do i have time to join a knitting group a book group something? keep my mind off things and be more interesting to others. i'm bored at work so my mind wonders...to bad places. to others it's bad places to me i just think that i'm doing them an honor by thinking about them and loving them so much. would everyone like to be thought about as much. what should i do. i can't help but wonder what he's thinking now about what i sent earlier. he didn't call right back..is he mad. going to end it. what goes on truly in his mind. am i a freak to him...someone to leave. i'm fjoijfoiaoojgek;ljatf/z.;hsaf idiot. nobody else feels the same things i do...or do they. are there other people like me? how do they control it. i love way too much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
it was a chemical imbalance for me, i needed the drugs.
i haven't been able to find a guy that has been really supportive, i've had to deal with it myself and try not to show him any of my pain.
it's difficult. the medication was a lifesaver for me