christmas is coing up dont have family 2 share it with my mum and step dad dont bother

i get sad, because i am always hurting because of something around this season.

usually something to deal with relationships

what makes me happy is wen i make som1 else happy

Hey pixie. I love the holidays. I love the music, the food, the general cheer. It is hard for me to understand why people are more depressed around christmas, because I am not. The only problem is I always feel let down after New Years. I keep trying to capture the pure joy I had when I was a kid, and it is no there anymore.

making someone else happy is a good feeling.

ayngel..maybe some christmas magic will make it your way this year.

I'm happy. I like buying gifts for others. seeing the smiles on there face when they open it up. I like spending time with my family

this time of year makes me kinda sad because I have no real family. And I remember how it was when I did have "family" during this time of year and it was never a good time that I can remember. I see all the commercials and family x-mas movies and lights everywhere and we're all supposed to be merry and get together with loved ones and basically I'm outta the scoop. But I also try and keep my chin up and my mind occupied and be happy for others and know that it wont always be this way for me and it's not my fault. I try to enjoy some of the perks, making x-mas cookies, I love colored lights and all that. It's a mixture for me of sadness and trying to enjoy the atmosphere as best I can. My father's in prison and my brother killed himself 8yrs ago and my mom, well I haven't seen her in 3 years, she's an alcoholic/addict. Just gotta keep moving forward and making new x-mas memories to enjoy.

Have you ever seen the eyes of the elderly in the nursing homes when you take them a single rose to have for the holidays. Does not matter if you know them or not..or watch them give that rose to the lady in there life that does not know them anymore. I had a lady one time say, she was given two dozen roses and was going to throw them away. I ask her to take them to the nursing home. She did and came back saying it was the best thing she had done.

I get excited with the shopping and the decorating and baking with the kids. Of course, not the flour and egg baking. premade stuff you roll and cut.lol

but, there is a sense of sadness when I hear the christmas carols,ect. I get teary eyed.

The holidays for me are really hard to face. I have past memories that make the day ... well ... hmmm to put it nicely ... kind of shitty. I try to just face it with a positive outlook, but I always seem to find myself in a slump.

I had a nervous breakdown during the holidays years ago. Was there all the way thru new years and nobody came to visit.

I put on a happy face for my son every year to make it great for him. But I'm determined to enjoy putting up the tree, decorating, wrapping presents, everything this year. I used to love christmas and want to so badly again. So I'm determined to truly enjoy it this year. I hope!

I'm usually very happy this time of the year. I love Christmas. But my husband is in prison and I won't get to see him this Christmas.

suzs you do just that. YOu paste a happy face on and you wrap gifts and decorate. You enjoy the season the way you used to.

jasonswife..maybe you can set up a visit and pack him a box. my dad was in prison and my mom did this for him.

Thanks Pixie - I am planning on it. So far so good this year. Have enjoyed buying presents. Gonna put the tree up this weekend. Oh how do I change my profile to a happy face? I can't figure it out? thanks

I have mixed feelings. I love it because it is the birth of my Lord and savior, and because of my children. I hate it because of my childhood.