tried this weekend to kill myself, I wanted so badly to end all the misery in my life. I can't even express how bad it gets at times, I feel like I have no one , I feel empty, I'm tired, tired of trying, trying to be whole, trying to be happy, trying to be normal, trying to be free. I feel like death is the only way out. I have nothing left to give. I took a whole bottle of pills, obviously it didnt kill me, I'm not sure how to feel now, if I should be happy my plan didnt work, or sad my plan didnt work.
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