Like clockwork. Every Friday, depression tries to overtake me. Most times it does, and sometimes I am able to fight it off until it passes. I"m not really sure how this one will turn out. I committed myself recently to not allowing my depression to control my life. So for the last 6 days I have been pretty good. But now I can feel it knocking on my door, slithering under the door into my space. Normally, the first weekend in May is one of my most favorite weekends of the year. I love the Kentucky Derby. I love horse racing on this day. But now, it's as though I could care less. I have no interest in the race, and I just dished out $450 for a new alternator for my car today so my ability to bet is nearly shut down. I used to be a huge huge fan of warm weather. I am the kind of person who loves it hot and humid. I hate winter and cold weather. Yet it is supposed to be absolutely spectacular here in the Northeast this weekend, as it is right now, and again, I could hardly care less. So it's obvious depression is trying to smother me again. The question is, will I choose to let it overtake me and control how I feel and what I do, or will I be able to stand up and fight it off. Stay tuned! Same bat time. Same bat channel!!!! (for those of you my age (49) and older...that would mean something to you all).
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