Oh for pants sake, im so fed up with myself. Ive gone and gotten obsesses with a tv programme AGAIN! You would have thought i'd have learnt not to after going through this so many times. The depression is bad today. I cant help it i feel like i hate myself because i am not someone from a film or even remotly like someone from a film. I hate my life because it is not like a film or exciting, no adventurs. I push my boyfriend away because he is not the hero that im obsessed with THIS time. I hate this, i hate the nomality of my life, my job, everything. I dont know how to stop this from happening. Part of me wants to stay ion a film in my head but i dont want to be depressed all the time. I feel so pathetic, my life is pathetic ......sigh........Thoughts on this anyone? Similar experiences anyone?
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