
Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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I don't know why but I can feel myself slipping into depression. I can feel the tears, and the knot in my throat. I am holding back. I have been in bed for over a year, and other than a few small ailments I really have no excuse for it. I should be cleaning the house, folding the clothes or doing something. My husband leaves in the am, and I am in the living room sleeping, when he comes home I am in the living room watching tv. I can't seem to make myself get out of bed. I had a hysterectomy last year in January, and I just haven't been the same. I believe I gave myself the back injury by not getting up and moving around, so now I have to deal with this. My son took my cc out of my wallet and ran up my gas card, and my atm card. I am on $148 unemployment and he does this to me. He is sleeping it is noon. He goes out everynight(I think he is hustling pool for $$), and I want to tell him he needs to get out. I can't keep hiding my purse(because I have to remember where I put it) I don't want to live like this but he just doesn't understand. He told me he was thinking about suicide months ago, and ever since then I have been walking on egg shells around him. He was caught in his junior yr of high school with a rifle in his mouth. So I take him very serious. I know that when he awakes I am going to have to confront him, and I hate confrontation. He is 22, no job, not going to school, and I believe he is bipolar but he refuses to get checked out. I was very close to Baker Acting him when this happened last time but I couldn't do it. I am just laying here like a BLOB. I am watching I Love Lucy. I wish I could make myself do something productive today, but I don't see it happening.
Tuesday I have to get an epidural shot even though I have already gone through it and know what to expect I am starting to get nervous. I don't like the person I have become. I wonder if after my Mom passed I just said "What does it matter?" to everything. Just sweeping the floor or doing some laundry would be great, if I could just get up and do it. If anyone has any ideas I would definately welcome them, until then.
Thanks from the BlOB on the couch.
Tuesday I have to get an epidural shot even though I have already gone through it and know what to expect I am starting to get nervous. I don't like the person I have become. I wonder if after my Mom passed I just said "What does it matter?" to everything. Just sweeping the floor or doing some laundry would be great, if I could just get up and do it. If anyone has any ideas I would definately welcome them, until then.
Thanks from the BlOB on the couch.
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Now, start crying if you need to. Let go of what you are holding in, because you are going t o explode. My Dad has really bad health issues and stayed in bed for 4 years, so you are okay. I agree with Meow. You should be seeing someone yourself. I know you are major worried about your son, but you have to help yourself first. If you don't do that, you will never be able to help him.
So, how do you get up? You just do. Start out little, and grow from there. Try to write down the little things that you do do, because even they are accomplishments.
You have already started by coming on this site. Good Girl!!
Now its time. Get off the couch and turn off the tv. When I wasn't working, tv was the devil. And cause I layed around all day, it was hard not to sleep half of it and the other half feel tired and sad.
Next step, sit at the computer, and read blogs from DS or write on the boards or sends a million hugs. Or go the internet, and start researching about your issues, where to get help. Go on About.com. That site is awesome for pretty much anything. Put on some music.
Next, cook dinner for when your husband gets home, if you can. Just make a box of mac and cheese if you have to. But stay up, use all your will to stay up and greet him when he gets home.
Sweetie, you can do this!!!!! Close your eyes and say I CAN DO THIS! Don't think about tommorrow, or tonight, just think about right now. Think moment to moment. Let your son sleep, when he gets up, be brave. Ask him if he want to help you cook dinner. Don't talk about bad things with him. Surprise him with something new to say.
Toady YOU ARE A NEW YOU!!!!!!!!!!