I am glad that you are seeing your counsellor tomorrow. Feeling low and tired is terrible. Old before my time is what I always say. Many people here have problems with friends understanding. How could they possibly understand something like this? I know I didnt when I would see my mom laying around. Find your support here as I have and many others have. Talk to your counsellor about other options open to you in dealing with this.

I have been thinking about what JK Rowling said about the dementors in her Harry Potter books. I read once that she used those characters to describe her own experience with depression. The feeling like nothing would ever be right in the world again - like you can't remember what it was like to be happy

Thank you for you're replies.
Thanks Jules
I'm just sad today. The last time I
felt happy was when I was ten. I was in the sahara with a parachute scooting across the sand. fun.

I have been thinking about what JK Rowling said about the dementors in her Harry Potter books. I read once that she used those characters to describe her own experience with depression. The feeling like nothing would ever be right in the world again - like you can't remember what it was like to be happy
Well she then made a billion dollars with her depression. I did not know that J.K. struggled with this condition.
niceguy

We've all been there, and we all have an idea of what you're going thru. I have those days where I feel like nothing is worth living for. But since my sessions have started, I feel more intact with my emotions, and I know why my life is the way it is. Nobody in my life understands what I was going thru as well; they acted as if I chose to be that way, almost as if I wanted them to pity me.

jules, old before my time? I took the real age test, it says I am 64.8 years old, I am only 48. I've always felt 20 years older, so I guess I shaved a few years back with lifestyle changes.

I am sorry you are feeling this way Niceguy, rediscovering memories really sets the emotions into play. You mentioned you are working on critical age of 8 and 4. You'll fee better tommorrow after you talk to your therapist and gain some perspective. Keep expectations low, but hope high. Bless you...

hey I know what your going through.

I am sorry to hear you are feeling so down. I hope your councellor is able to help.

Thanks for posting. My friends and family do not understand. That's the ones that are still left. Good for you! Going to a counselor helps me greatly. I am grateful that I belong to an agency that picks me up and takes me there and back. Otherwise I'd be stuck home year round instead of just in the winters when the volunteers can't make it to me cause of the snow. When I look at the whole picture it is overwhelming, when I just look at one little piece that seems to cut down the frustration and anxiety.

Thank you for all you're kind replies.
It helped my heart.

I just saw a pbs. special on charles
shultz. What a wonderful man he was and I think that I feel like Charlie Brown a lot. Bless you.