Why is it that no matter how hard i try i can't sleep or try to sleep with out mentally thinking of all the bad things that may or may not happen? Why do i mentally think of approximately how many years i may or may not have to live? What the hell is wrong with my brain? Does everyone think like this or am i insane? I have a perfect life if only i could stop thinking about what may or may not happen. I have a horrible time letting go of things including people. My husband left last weekend for a 3 day trip and i cried the whole day he left the whole first night and until he got home. I missed him that much i thougt honestly my heart would break in two. I wonder if you can honestly die of a broken heart? He feels so helpless when i cry and he doesn't know what to do so he'll hold me until i am so exhausted that i will almost pass out and go to sleep. He is so good to me and all i want to do is enjoy him and the time we have together, why can't i? It is so unfair!
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