didn't go swim last nite. what a pathetic existence I'm creating for myself. broken record. I'm gonna do this....didn't do it! over and over. I have fallen off the merry go round and into a hole and it's covered in cement! it's all in my freakin head too! Why can't I get out of this house!!!!!! I get so confused and worried about things that need doing before I leave, but I don't do them when I'm here!!! I'm copying this to a post to see if y'all can help me today.
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