I was an 18 yr. old Mother and I was married to my son's Dad but the abuse started and got worse, then I started fighting back and this lifestyle went on for a few yrs. and got real ugly. I was also an alcoholic Mother and the Dad was too. I finally did leave but it did alot of damage to my son as he seen this behavior. My son in the past has tried to kill me 3 times and finally I had to see it for what it was. He said he was (simply restraining me.) The last 10yrs. I have really tried to be there for him and I feel I have made changes for the better with myself but this past Christmas just like the others I was really hoping to get a present from him for the first time in my life and well there wasn't anything. He doesn't live close by and we do talk on the phone but it's mainly about his bragging about his job, car, etc, He always brags. He hits his girlfriend also in front of his 2yr. old daughter and I always feel I'm to blame for this. Then he remarked a child needs both their parents and he could of benefited more if his Dad was around. Ha his Dad was around and never bought him anything, never paid child support, hit his Mother, never respected anyone else and was the stingiest so and so I had ever met. I feel like I have been stuck in this guilt for so long I just want to break free for once and all. How?I truly love my son but feel that he really doesn't care if I live or die.
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