I am feeling really depressed today and it has been a very long time since I have felt this way. I had forgotten exactly how down I can get. I am just overwhelmed with emotions right now. I really don't know why this hit me now. I have gone for 2 years as a single mother handling everything that came my way. Now, all of the sudden I am so down that I even miss my ex husband who treated me horrible. I have not dated at all since divorcing and I am really lonely and sad that I will never find anyone that will love me. I live my life for my kids but I just want to be happy to, but I feel guilty for being upset about not having anyone- I should only be caring about my kids needs at this point and not mine. I tried going to bed last night but ended up staying up until 4am and got up at 7am. Since then I have just been watching t.v. and doing a few odd jobs around the house. I don't know what to do to get myself out of this rut I seem to be in. Can anyone help me?
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