well i am really tryin to feel happy at the moment but i dont think it will last=( i have sooooooo many worries and fears that it just really is makin me sick in a physical way.my blood pressure is through the roof. feel so much pain in my back and arms and legs. cant think about anything but the worry shit. cant get my mind off it even when i try.i cant keep my eyes open or focused on something for too long. cry and sometimes its more then twice a day. have bad chest pains. cant understand me anymore. feel traped and dont know what to do or were to turn. friends not sure if there really friends.i have really low self esteem. i think i will make people mad at me.maybe they just dont want to be bothered.they tell me there here for me and love me but wont let me talk about what is really bugging me. tell me to try and be happy. do something for others when i dont know how to help myself. tell me to read and whatever. they dont understand i dont think. they say they do. why cant i just move on??? why do i make me sick over the way i was treated and relate it to things of my past. why has it been 6 months and i feel the same as day one.
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