I am having alot of panic attacks lately as i have to go to mediation to keep my kids safe from their father who hurt them physically and ever since I got them away he has been harrassing us and has made my depression spiral out of control and am on a new medication so I can just handle the kids as I don't sleep and the house is like fort knox and got a new dog who barks.I can't go anywhere in my town which is not huge and he would be there.He works near my kids school is and I live between his mum's place and the school and his work so he drives by.I couldn't handle it anymore in September and packed up the 5 kids and left but when I came back the problems were still there so I can't win.I'm on zyprexia 10mg at night so i hope i can get some sleep.I am so scared about tomorrow and now he has just rung and I hung up on him as all he wants to talk about is tomorrow.I am so jumpy and nervous all the time and I cry alot for no reason.So tomorrow I shall see what will happen.
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