i have no idea whats wrong with me at the moment. I have 2 kids and am tired all the time. only normal right. My hair falls out and i have a constant head ache or stomach ache. Should watch what i eat and stop spending all my time on the computer, hair well thats from too many hair products right???!!!! im trying to justify why i feel like crying all the time and why i was on the floor screeming and crying and throwing my arms around like a mad woman,(i was one at the time) im hungry yet cant eat. Why has this happened to me??? I am the most sensible, bubbly and strong person i can be but at the moment i dont know who i am. I thought i would never be the type of person that does this next thing but i cut myself to take the pain away, I would never do this yet i find myself justifying that it is ok and the pain will heal just like my feelings should but it hasnt. then i feel guilty cause i have a few hours where im "ok", smiling and having a joke next thing i am in tears or stressing about how to deal with the kids. Just tell me im normal and that time will tell. I am so exhausted.
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