it's been the worst day...i dont know what to do anymore. i swear i'm losing my mind and i just want this to end. i can't do this anymore. i can't take care of everything and everyone. i can't take care of myself. i can't be what everyone wants me to be. it's not fair...i'm not strong enough. i don't know what i'm supposed to do. i pray and plead and beg for some kind of relief, but nothing ever gets better. nothing ever changes. nothing ever changes...why? i don't know what i am supposed to do. i hate my life, i hate it. i'm so tired of not having anything. i'm tired of needing help. i'm tired of being worthless and unwanted. i'm tired of giving and giving and never getting anything back. i'm tired of wanting things to get better. and i'm tired of fighting and yelling and being screamed at and being hated. i don't know how to change things...i don't know how to make it good again. what do i do? why is this happening? why?
Posts You May Be Interested In
A friend sent this to me..As far as I can see, grief will never truly end.It may become softer overtime, more gentleand some days will feel sharp.But grief will last as long as Love does - ForeverIt's simply the way the absence of your loved onemanifests in your heart. A deep longing accompaniedby the deepest Love some days. The heavy fog mayreturn and the next day, it may recede.Once again, it's...
Today is my 25th birthday, to my somewhat lack of surprise I can see already no one really seems to care. I've always been the kinda person to make sure that everyone I Care about feels appreciated and knew somebody had their back. I can count 4 times this year when I Went out of my way to make sure a "friend" felt good on their birthday, especially if they got left hanging. Its early in the...