Hi. I am feeling guilty to the point where I am becoming overwhelmingly depressed. I recently ended an unhealthy friendship with my ex because I was sacrificing my own mental and physical health for hers. The guilt is coming from my telling her I would not leave her, again. I told her I would support her and I was. Until, I was expected to ignore my health for hers (which is something she said she didn't want me to do in the beginning). It all came to a head about 2 weeks ago when I had a nasty cold and I told her I would talk to her later that night, because I needed to rest on my lunch break. She began ranting and saying that we were done, she wasn't going to talk to me anymore, etc., etc. About ten minutes after I hung up, her grandmother called me and left a nasty message saying I was not allowed near her or at her apartment anymore, because she had another "episode" (i.e. seizure-like stress episodes she suffers from when extreme stress is going on) after talking to me. So, I decided then and there I couldn't do it anymore. It was harming me and her. Yet, even as I write this and see the logic, my emotional guilt of "abandoning" her is eating me alive. Please help!
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