youre not alone in those feelings....

Guilt is an integral part of depression, I believeit's another way we find to beat ourselves up, to find fault with ourselves so we can get even more depressed. Good luck with the appointment tomorrow, minxie. Luv ya. :)

This totally sounds like a post I put on here yesterday only mine was 'I don't know' lol
All I can say is you are who you are and you have bugger all to feel guilty about. You're talking this through, trying to get it out of whatever slump you're in and you got something to look forward too. We all feel like there's more we could be doing but if you think like that nothing is ever gonna be enough and you'll just beat yourself back into the ground. And as for being ignored, you said you have friends on here, you know I'm sure they don't and if you're at a real loss feel free to msg me too x

Good lord, I think you're me. Are you me? You must be.

Hugs girl, and good luck in therapy tomorrow.

oh i do that. Beat myself up all the time about the things i should be doing but am not. Try to be kind to yourself and good luck with the therapy.

Thanks guys. I always saw 'guilt' listed a s symptom of depression but, up until recently, I didn't really experience it...
I dont like it :(

I do alot of that "never do enough" guilt tripping myself but in my case I have a good idea where it's coming from. That is having this genuis mother who could and did do everything perfectly (except be a mother) who never missed a chance to let me know that I was lazy, incompetent and never did enough. Seems when that voice gets planted in your head early enough it's almost impossible to get rid of.
Hope things go great with the therapy and don't worry about the petty things (listen who's talking here). A hundred years from now no one will give a rats arse if your flat was clean but someone may benefit because you took the time to care. XXOO, Georgia

Go ahead beat yourself up and then what?
Practically speaking, you sound like you need a few hugs and kind words.

Why not love and care for yourself into a better place. Belittling yourself and /or others doesn't fix anything. It only feeds more of the same.
You are special and you matter.

Alwaysad- Agreed.

You must learn to let go of the guilt and say "okay, here I am, what now?" The past is over. You can only change the present. I know it's hard to do. I'm working at it myself. Sometimes my guilt overwhelms me too, but I beat it back. I can't change my past mistakes. I can only do my best now.

Red....BIG FURBALL HUG

It kinda sounds like (and feels like) it's a self esteem thing you know?

Hey, Red, I know it's alot easier for those of us doing pretty well right now to give you adice about how you could love yours elf out of your situation - and we mean well, honest! Guilt does seem to travel w/depression quite often - goddess knows I've been carrying a sh**-load of it myself for most of my 54 years!! lol

You also are absolutely right that guilt is a self-esteem issue. That's what it's all about. Thinking less of ourselves in one or more ways - devaluing the perfect gift from the universe that we truly are!

Talk therapy was one of the best ways I found to deal with my guilt. And therapy plus a good mood stabilizer (Trileptal) has done wonders for my depression! I never knew what it felt like to not carry depresion or anxiety with me 24/7 - I can't remember EVER not feeling depressed or anxious and guilty.

My point in all of this is, I really do understand a little bit about how you feel, and I think you are doing alot of things to help yourself

Stay connected here. Stay with therapy. Think about seeing a pdoc for mood stabilizing meds. Accept the fact that you have a neurological issue which creates anxiety and alot of guilt because of esteem issues. and accept that it takes a long time sometimes to climb up out of that black hole you sometimes find yours elf in. (Or feel like you always live is - as was my case)

Oh, and did I say stay connected here?? :)

Sending healing energy and White Light. let us know how your first appt goes?

Namaste,
Trish

Thank you TrishW, that all really helps.
I'll keep you all up to date with how my therapy is going :)

Wow thats how i feel most of the time. Hope yr therapy session goes well. x