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i wish i could. i hope evrythn goes beta for you.

Do you keep a journal here? You can keep it private. I have found that just writing down my thoughts have helped me focus better, it's helped me so much. You sound as if you have a deep underlying anxiety. It may be locked in your past. Try to be brave and see the psychologist, I know it's hard, but I think you may be helped a lot this way. All my best wishes and care, and if you need to talk.......I listen

I resisted antidepressants for a long, long time...and come to find out, I have bipolar II and that's why the ones I did try once in a while, didn't help much anyway...
What I did find out in the process though, is that if depression doesn't go away on its own in a reasonable amount of time, you would probably benefit from meds and/or therapy. Both are recommended for major depression (depression that is severe and doesn't go away on it's own)
That does not necessarily mean you will need it forever, but that you may need it to get back in balance.

Also, the longer you wait to treat it, the more difficult it is to treat it.

If you want more info or have any more questions, just let me know. I will be happy to answer what I can, or find the answers if I can't.

Hello Mike,
Welcome, and I'm glad you posted. That is a good start. I like what Dearest said about writing. It helps me too. And making friends here helps me too. It gives me something to look forward to. I see a therapist and take medication. It has not been a smooth road, but I think this is a process that has been good for me. I know I can't do it alone, so I would muster up the courage and call a mental health facility for some help. Take care and let us know how your are..

I, too tried to do it own my own and I finally called for help. It is hard making the phone call; and it hasn't been an easy road as someone said but it will help and is needed. Try journaling and talking too. I'm here if you want to talk. Take care xx

you have done the hardest step... admit you need help. Next is to get help. I too was afraid the first time I went to the doctors for what was wrong inside my head. It was the best thing I did. I am looking forward to going back... See a trusted doctor (your GP).

As each person is different, each professional is different. What might be good may not be good for another. Have patience with yourself and how quickly it will take to get better.

Sounds like me. All but the girlfriend part. But I had alot of guys I really liked use me for sex and that just compilled the depression. My current boyfriend doesn't understand me at all. He gets mad at me. I lost interest in every activity I was ever passionate about. And so my boyfriend calls me lazy.

i was so NOT going to go on meds!!! but i really had to. i lost 50 pounds in two months. i lay in bed not wanting to do anything or be around anyone - not even my family members who have also spent their lives dealing with depression.

just because you are not suicidal, does not mean that you are not depressed or in a major depression.

dont be afraid of pills. i know alot of people think that they make you feel drugged or out of control. there are alot of good meds out there, ones that make you feel normal. i didnt even realize that i was having anxiety until my psychologist told me. i thought he was nuts. he gave me a prescription for that too. - but when the antidepressants kicked in, i didn't need the anti-anxiety meds anymore. and just because you go on meds, doesnt necessarily mean you will be on them for the rest of your life either.

like the others have said, writing on my journal helps me tremendously. never knew just writing about thoughts and feelings and days events could have such a positive impact.

and we are all always here for you!!