Well, my anxiety has gotten very bad lately since telling that guy that I want him to leave me alone. He was verbally abusive and manipulative and I can't have that in my life. He waited for me outside of work. I had to call the cops to give him a warning and I was able to get a restraining order. I do not know if he follows me or what because he has a pretty typical car that you see everywhere. He hasn't crossed the line yet of contacting me or at least letting me know that hes around but I just know that when he does, thats it. He won't do something like text me and then get in trouble for doing it. I know he is waiting, I do not know when or what he has planned. I can't explain how I know but I do probably because I have known him for so long. I am out of ideas on what to do mainly because he hasn't done anything new. I sometimes think hes following me or watching me but I never catch him. I don't know how long I can go on feeling on edge like this all the time. It has been a week since I have cut but I still want to because I am so depressed that I have no friends because the one I had was very harmful to me. Being alone is the worst part or all this.
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