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GOING TO SNAP!!!!

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Kids are being little demons.

I told everybody about what I needed today and felt like I really wasn't heard. I feel like everyone thinks I have more strength left then I actually do.
I never thought I would feel this way with my kids here but I am so dangerously close to doing something regardless of them being here. They are driving me crazy.
I have no cigarettes and have not had any in near 48 hours because I am broke. I needed gas in my car and that always comes first. Cigs are the first thing that goes.
I wanted to in the hospital today but could not reach my ex. He is in hiding and out to make me feel like shit on this weekend. Tomorrow is our sons birthday and the ex will spend the day hating me because I am the devil who killed his kid.
I can't take another fucking second of this insanity. When is it my turn for a fucking break.
FFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!
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Take it easy. You'll be okay. Is there something about the wekends that brings you down so much?
ChiTownBear
ChiTownBear
Without the cigs make things harder ....
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No maridon, I spent the week trying to make everything better and it all back fired. from the neurologist who told me I dont have enough pain frequently enough to being put on a wait list for a therapist, to telling people how desperate I felt and not having anyone to help me, from knowing how bad this weekend was going to suck and I am in no ocndition to handle it, to not getting in for meds until Jan.
I just can't keep doing this alone...
You know your fucking desperate when you wish someone would just commit your ass so I would not have to feel bad about how everyone elses schedule would be affected.
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Sometiemes my head is like that too. SSSCCCCCCCCRRRRRRRRRREEEEEEEAAAAMMMMM!
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One time I was so desperate for a cig I smoked dry grass and paper. lol
I have a 2 and 3 year old
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What can I do to help? So sorry you are hurting. I'm here for you if you want to talk.
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What do you mean by you killed his kid?
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Trick my kid learned in jail... smoking tea. I've never tried it, but if you have some tea bags and rolling papers, let me know if its as horrid as it sounds to be. Actually, they were using tea to stretch their limited supply of tobacco in a "smoke-free" jail. Real creative on how to light it, too... without matches or lighters.
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Carrie,

I was the driver when the car slid on ice and our 3 yr old son was killed in a car accident.
He called me a murderer. HIm and his whole family hold me accountable for my son dying. It was not intentional and it has destroyed my life. This weekend is his birthday and I want to be with him and I dont know how to fight off the urge to go to be with him.
I am not a murderer...i did not kill him...it was an accident....I cant take it back...i cant do that day over...
I just want to stop hurting...I want to be in eternal peace with my boy!
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Let it out. You have a lot of kids and they're known for stress! lol

She didn't literaly kill anyone!
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you need some real friend, you had an accident..unless you were drunk or high it was not your fault about your baby boy. I have hit black ice before and almost went over the freeway overpass.
Iknow that feeling of losing your sanity, but you have your girls, and a cute doggy who love you and need you so much.
Please forgive yourself.. it hurts me to read your post, there are no words, the birthday is what is driving you to the edge.. do you have any family or friends?
why can't you get med's until january?
please take care of yourself
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was not drunk...was not on drugs...was not even of prescription...
Just shitty ass weather...
Hard to forgive myself when no one else will...
I tried to get meds...tried with urgent care they said go to ER....went to ER they did nothing...did get referral to see a shrink from worthless therapist...and they did not have an opening until Jan 15th.
I cant do this!!!
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Is there anything that you can SAFELY beat the shit out of ? Sometimes it helps to get the to lighten up. It works for me. Tell yer kids ya wanna play the screaming game. Just get in a circle & make everybody scream as loud as they can for about 2 minutes. You'll be suprised.
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My neighbor would have a coronary. She gets pissed when the kids squeal in the bath tub.
I am falling apart
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hhmmmmm.... everybody scream into pillows, and then have a pillow fight ? That way even the kids get to wipe out some energy too. Maybe they'll calm down for ya then? Just a sugestion.
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