I am graduate student who is away from home. I'm going through some hard times fighting paranoia and depression. I havent been diagnosed but I know I am mentally different from the rest. Things that come easy to so many others is a monumental chore for me. All I do is make people uncomfortable with my present. I am stiff in social setting, especially around people I havent met before or people I am not comfortable with. I dont do it on purpose, I just dont know how to relax. I look around and see everyone else so normal and it makes me even sadder that I cant do something as simple as that. I got some feed back earlier this week about what people think of me, and someone said I was arrogant. I can be sarcastic and I guess people dont understand me. Now I spend my time randomly crying when the feeling becomes overwhelming and I feel I have no friends. I feel as if I have no one
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