Hi everyone. Im new to this place. Ive met some very awsome, supportive people here and cant begin to thank them enough for their kindess and support. I am so glad I found this place. I am having a very hard day! Friday around 3am my boyfriend of 6yrs was arrested because I called the cops on him. He was drinking and became very violent towards me. He was choking me, and held a knife to my throat tellin me that if I didnt stop crying he was gonna cut my vocal cords out. This is not the first time I had feared for my life, but this is hopefully the last. This has been going on for a very long time, and has brought back several horrible memories from my childhood. In fact when i was 14 I ran away with this man because he told me he would protect me because i was being sexually and physically abused at home. Ive been with him ever since. Everybody is telling me that I made the right decision but i feel like Ive dug myself a deeper hole. His friends will not stop harassing me, tellin me Im fuckin with the wrong person and telln me their gonna come shoot the place up. I got so sick of them callin me that I finally said to them,"You know where I live, come put holes in me, you'd be doin me a favor." I am so scared, and tired... I havnt sleep in 3 days and I feel like this is it, Im at the end of my rope n dont know what to do! Ive been trying soooo damn hard to keep going and not give up but its like I have to start my whole entire life over because I have to find a new place to live and really dont have anybody because he wouldnt let me talk to any of my friends and basically I had no life. I wasnt allowed to work or anything.... WHAT DO I DO????!!!!!
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