I am 28 years old and have been struggling with depression for years. I have 2 kids. I previously took meds for depression but stopped taking them along time ago. I really did not want to be put on meds for a long period as I have always had a hard time with taking pills regularly. I stopped taking them because I just felt tired all the time and could not function. I seen a physic for a little while then things in my life started going good and I just thought that I could deal with it on my own if I do have problems. Since then I have had so many things happen that make it almost impossible. Just 2 months ago my 23 year old sister died. She was 23 and for years was struggling with bipolar disorder and being manic depressive. Since then the only thing keeping me here is my 2 kids and fiance but it is just simply too hard most days. My daughter will be 2 this month and throws her screaming fits more and more often. I don't have a moment to breath. So many things going through my mind but I cannot sort them out. My sister and I were so close. In the beginning I was having such a hard time I thought that I would sit down and try to write out my thoughts. Later after reading what I wrote it was about reasons to go or stay and then it even had things to take care of before I leave. Needless to say it scared me be I love my kids but I feel like my sister needs me. I feel like I didn't do enough for her. I just joined this group a couple days ago as recommended by a co worker who knows my struggles. What is wrong with me?
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