It's been a month since the break up, I feel like I should be getting better by now, but it's only getting worse. I can barely function now, I hardly take a shower and my appetite is starting to suffer. I can't fathom why, but I feel like I'm still in love with her. I'm still in disbelief that she's gone. I feel like I"m in hell, and I can't go on any longer. The suicidal thoughts are coming more frequently, and I don't know how long I can stand it before I give in. I'm supposed to see a psychiatrist, but I have to see a therapist first to see if I even need to, then set up the appointment, which would be a few months out. The meds I'm on aren't doing a damn thing, I feel as bad if not worse than at the beginning. I can't stand this anymore, I just can't live like this, I don't know what to do. I have a lot going for me, but it doesn't seem to matter. I don't want to feel this pain anymore, I just want peace. I feel like I have a lot to offer the world, but I don't see the point if I can't climb out of this hole. I'm stuck in this house all day with nothing to look forward to but the same misery day in and day out. I'm lost and alone, I'm not emotionally equipped to deal with this.
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