I'm new to the community. I am a stay at home mom with a husband and a 3 year old daughter. I ride motorcycle's and have 2 Boa constrictors and a ball python along with 2 kitty's. We own our home and it would sound as though we have everything we could want, except I have a huge flaw!! For some reason i act like we live in a box and world is coming to an end!! I take Zoloft (a generic brand) I've been depressed for 3 years. Quencidently this is the age of our daughter!! I love my child to death but for some reason ever since she was born my life turned upside down. Most of the time I can't make decisions, I cry, I sleep, I argue and am flat out not nice. It' seems as though I have this routine of crying for an entire day, sleep well that night and then I'm good for about 5 to 7 days, then it starts again. I cry all day, My husband and I talk and then I'm good again for a few days etc. etc. It's been like this for 3 years. I went through a good time where I was doing reall well for 3 months. Then I seemed to realize I was doing well and then I started this stuff all over again. I hate going to the doctor she offers no support just more drugs. She even prescribed Valume to me. I took it once and since then when I get upset thats all I want. I don't have any because I threw it out and my husband say's NO WAY!! All it seems to do is make me calm and sleepy it doesn't help my problem at all!! This makes me think whether my Zoloft does anything for me at all. Lately, I haven't been doing well. I keep getting upset at the smallest things. I don't feel good about myself and worry that I bring my family down alot. Lately, I've been questioning what this life is all about, Why do we do this? What Is The Point? These are the questions that scare me and my husband. I have no friends and no social life. I don't want to spend our money on doctors and therapists. I want to be happy and optimistic, but I need help. I'm hoping to begin something of a social life by using this website and I'm hoping this is all I need.
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