My name is steve and I want to die. My life is devoid of meaning, I pay money to go to a school where I do not learn anything, I learn how to say "yes sir" and do a bunch of bullshit work (I'm in college, fyi). I am incapable of making friends with new people, fuck it, I can hardly talk to new people. Most of the time I come off as a pissed off and jaded asshole who no one wants to be around for very long because I am never happy and have not been happy for 5 years now. I have nothing to wake up for in the morning and I don't think I'll ever be able to find something I truly love doing. As far as relationships are concerned, I've failed. No one wants to be with someone as dour as me, not even my family. I'm a fuck up and a disappointment, I can't even go to school some days because I just don't get out of bed. It all just seems so simple if I remove myself from the peoples' lives around me. Even if death is just rotting in a hole in the ground it seems better than what I've got now. I'm going to stop ranting now.
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