I feel like there is so much coming at me. Things at my job are driving me crazy (read my long journal rantings on that if you feel bored enough) I feel like so much is coming at me all at once and I don't know how to handle it or deal with it. I want it to all go away. I want these thoughts to go away so I can finally think clearly again! The worst part is that I feel so incredibly alone, I feel like I have no one to turn to and the friends that I do have left, I feel like alienating myself from them because I'm convinced that they just don't want to listen or don't really care. Honestly I'm not really sure whats true anymore because this evil sick disease twists everything in my head and I don't know whats real sometimes. Does anyone else feel that way? Maybe a friend doesn't do something and when normally it wouldn't be a big deal suddenly you take everything personally and you don't know if you should or not? Why does depression have to distort reality? Why can't I see clearly? I want to be me again!
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