I guess someone somewhere hates me in addition to watching my sister basically kill herself and bad trigger days i've had im now dealing with the fall out and over thinking of an argument thay happened a few days ago with my family. I utter one sentence about my almost 40 year old brother needing to learn to be more independent and i get ganged up on and told i never lived on my own i was a failure and not to start that shit with my brother and listen to my aunt refer to my boyfriend as "the guy who fucked everything up". And when i attempt to defend myself and him my mom decideds now she wants to get involved only to tell me to knock it off and not be mad.
I dont recall seeing anyone standing next to me in the middle of the night losing sleep to make sure Pop was still breathing, i never had any help doing all the chores around here plus take care of him at the same time. I was a 20 year old girl that got a shit ton of responsibilities heaped on her shoulders that no body else had the guts to step up and deal with. Yet im the failure??!!
You can only push the nice girl so far before she snaps, and this girls about to start snapping.
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