During the pandemic I was attending zoom meetings with friends, but I was feeling really uncomfortable during the meetings and when I attended, my stomach would hurt or I would get a headache, so I stopped attending. I thought maybe it was "just me", but I was feeling like there was a really high amount of hostility among the people and in the group. I couldn't explain why-it was just something that I felt and I couldn't explain the reason. The general amount of complaining I'm sure was a part of it yet it seemed to be a way more intense vibe than normal.
Interestingly, I went to a movie for the first time since this pandemic started with one of my friends. We really haven't seen a lot of each other over the pandemic, but I was a little startled over her appearance, just how it had changed for the worse and a tremendous amount of weight gain, even for a person who was already significantly overweight. It was a little startling to notice the change. We got to talking and the truth came out, she said that she had a raging temper, would scream and shout about various things. She often seems extremely angry at her mother. I find it to be really intimidating. I don't remember her being this way when we first became friends a decade ago.
I don't know why, but her choice of movie bothered me. Part of me didn't care what movie we saw because I hadn't been to the movies or hardly anywhere in this time. She chose Gladiator, and I thought it was a newer version. If it were the original from 20 years ago, the one with Russell Crowe and Joaquin Phoenix, I would not have gone. The level of violence has always been too much for me with that movie, I barely got through it before and quit watching it a couple of times. I just wonder why she had to choose it.
Anyone else here overly sensitive to peoples' change of mood and attitude? I know I am, and I am far less able to handle it than before.
Does anyone else have hard days where they feel uncomfortable in their skin?When I was diagnosed with Bipolar disorder they might as well told me I had a life threatening illness like cancer. I thought my life and what I wanted was over. It took years for me to just be able to tolerate it. Then I had a son. I have always taken care of it and took medications but now it's actually being used...
I thought Lady Bugs were very pretty. Liked to see Lightening Bugs light up on asummers night, and watched ants crawling on the sidewalk.