AAAARRRRGGGGHHHH!!!! I am so frustrated with, and tired of so much. I have not had a good day again today. I have lost track of how many there have been consecutively. Too many to keep track of honestly. I am ready to just say to hell with it all. I am so ready to not have to feel hurt by ones I am supposed to feel love from. It is just so not worth it at all. I have had the thought in my head all day to just end it. I have had many opportunities to do so. Only I haven't, and I will not. I tell myself I must be strong no matter what. That I am just not worth feeling good or anything that happy people feel.I feel this way with every ounce of my being. That I do not even deserve the peacefulness that death will bring. I am sorry if I have bothered anyone with this. Just thought it would feel a little bit better to let it out. I don't even care if nobody reads this let alone responds.
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