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deleted_user
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Ive been in hospital for a month since an overdose i got back on the weekend. My boyfriend beat me up last night and Im now pretty swollen up and a big hazy. But it was my fault cos I havent been around to meet his needs and he feels resentful about that. I do care about him and I feel guilty for the things i have done. It wasnt his fault its my fault i cause these things to happen. Im just really sore now and a bit miserable and a bit scared of him too cos i asked him to stop and i said no but he said that i said yes and that i wanted it really. my friends said it was rape but i dont think it was because i do love him i just wasnt ready cos it was too soon for me and im scared now cos he is so strong and can make me do things when i dont want too. I know that im a bad person or else he wouldnt have made me do those things and that i should be punished for being a bad girl. I just wish he didnt call me a piece of meat because when he said that that really hurt my feelings.
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cagedDreams
cagedDreams
i'll leave the details to the next 100 replies but no, you are not a bad person, you haven't done anything wrong, there is nothing wrong with you and this guy is a piece of shit that should be locked up asap...ring 911 now and talk to the authorities, they can provide you with all the support you'll need....what you're feeling towards him is not love, can't remember the exact terminology for it but it is a victim's attachment to her abuser after serious abuse and manupilation!!...please get some help...i'm here to talk if you want
shootingstar
shootingstar
You dont deserve to get hit. You dont deserve it ... and you never ever ever will deserve it. I just wanted you to know that. Please consider your situation with your boyfriend and look at your options of leaving. You deserve to be treated better. And you will be happier.
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it is not you ,you are not a bad person he has lowered your self esteem by belittling you.you need to get out and get out fast no real man would beat a woman..and he cant really love you if he hurts you..i know its hard because you love him but is that love worth dying for???he needs help not you and if he doesnt get it get out and get out fast!!!!
deleted_user
deleted_user
Nobody deserves to be abused! Get help now while you still can! You should be worried about more then just your feelings getting hurt. He could kill you next time and then it will be too late. Please don't let there be a next time.
deleted_user
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Soooo sorry that you have gone through this. ((((BIG HUGS))))
Getting beaten up was not only NOT your fault, it was a CRIME. He can be arrested for what he did, and SHOULD be arrested. Don't kid yourself about this. Getting beaten on is not love, sorry to be so blunt. Domestic abuse only gets worse. Please, do the right thing and help yourself by putting a stop to it. (file a police report, get a restraining order, etc.) Best wishes. I'm glad to talk if you need to talk to someone.
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My apology; sent first reply before adding this; If sex was against your will, it IS rape, period. That also is a CRIME that he can, and should be arrested for. Best wishes...
deleted_user
deleted_user
oh, you got to get out of that situation sweety. No one has the right to hit anyone especially a man hitting a women. It's not your fault in anyway shape or form. Your worth so much more then you think you are.
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You know what we're going to say.Get out,get help.He's going to kill you if you don't.My mum had bones broken,he forced her to do things with his friends...it can only get worse
deleted_user
deleted_user
Your post made me SO angry.Not with you,with your boyfriend.I was raped by my partner poppy.My situ isnt as bad as yours but you WERE raped and you HAVE to get away from him.I know its a hard thing to do,thats why I'm still here.Also I have 3kids with him.But my partner doesnt hurt my physically(except for that rape a few years ago)I know its hard to think about leaving and managing on your own,but its not as bad as being hurt physically as you are.
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You need to get out, now. This is not love, when you love someone you dont hurt them physically or mentally. There is a post about a woman here who lef her abusive partner and manages to start a new life. You can do it. hugs
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your boyfriend is a piece of shit and he's using your vulnerability against you
ZAZAS
ZAZAS
I'm sorry you had to live through that. No one should be treated that way. You know what to do, now you just have to make your mind up and do it. Call for some help from a physcial or emotional abuse hotline, please.
Testycatlady
Testycatlady
GET THE HELL OUT OF THAT RELATIONSHIP!!!!! Call the cops on him. You are not meat, and he did rape you!!!! Physical abuse is against the law. Put his ass in jail and go to a womens shelter. I beg you do this NOW PLEASE!!!!
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