Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
i just want it all to go away, the pain, the memory, the feeling, the twist in my stomach, the pain in my heart. i just want someone to take it all away. im trying to stop all the crap i do. but it's so hard stopping SI, sniffing and drinking all at once, i drank last night. and cut this morning. i feel like a failure, i want to die, but id feel guilty if i did. id leave behind at least 2 amazing people that i am so lucky to have [hopefully they know who they are]. i dont want to hurt them, but i know i will end up hurting them somehow. im so confused about so many things right now, i just feel like crawling under a bed and hiding from the pain, but the pain finds me and haunts me. no matter how drunk or how high i get i always comes back. and it comes back harder. it sucks
i dont know why i feel this way, i havent had a bad life. bit of bullying and teasing about my sexuality. but nothing huge like abuse or rape or anything like that. so why am i so angry with the world? and so fucked off with it all? i have nothing to be sad about or to justify me wanting to die. i hate feeling like this and i want to change but everywhere i turn something is in the way. whether it be money or time or guts or whatever. i dont know how to chnage and im scared to, ive been here for so long.and i want to get out, but i dont know how. i shud be happy i have 2 amazing people in my life. and my family is still together even if it is crap. and i have a roof aover my head. i live comfortably. but im not happy, im sad. im numb from reality
i know im talking crap
and its long
sorry
i dont know why i feel this way, i havent had a bad life. bit of bullying and teasing about my sexuality. but nothing huge like abuse or rape or anything like that. so why am i so angry with the world? and so fucked off with it all? i have nothing to be sad about or to justify me wanting to die. i hate feeling like this and i want to change but everywhere i turn something is in the way. whether it be money or time or guts or whatever. i dont know how to chnage and im scared to, ive been here for so long.and i want to get out, but i dont know how. i shud be happy i have 2 amazing people in my life. and my family is still together even if it is crap. and i have a roof aover my head. i live comfortably. but im not happy, im sad. im numb from reality
i know im talking crap
and its long
sorry
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
just feelin so low
nd pathetic right now
u have 2have tablets, 1a day and they last lyk 9months (depending the person)...but u got 2go 2the docs bout it and if u want i will come with you xxxxxxxxxxx