The first thing I do when I wake up is run to the mirror to see if I'm pretty, and it's so exhausting, I spend so much time worrying about my looks and how to fix my face and I basically live in the bathroom always staring at myself, and my sister is always telling me I look really pretty but still I really don't see that, and it's so depressing, I genuinely think I'm ugly and all I did today was work on trying to look prettier, I did my hair and spent about 30 minutes on it, I did face excercise and was watching videos all day about them because I don't think I have a nice facial bone structure and I basically was thinking about the way I look the whole time, and the few times I do think I'm pretty when I go to take photos I look horrible and awful, I don't get it, and I know we view ourselves differently from how other view us but I still have a strong belief that I'm not pretty because my phone and the mirror says otherwise, anyways yeah, I literally don't think my life is important or worth living unless I'm really pretty
I have had great sleep for 7 months. Before, I had depression and anxiety from not treating my sleep apnea. I take cymbalta that doesnt allow caffeine intake. It could cause seretonin syndrome. For one month I drank caffeine anyway. I came off 2 1/2 weeks ago because it was building up in my system, I was becoming disoriented and forgetting things. After I quit caffeine, I mostly slept for...