I Have been diagnosed with BPD & depressive & schizoid personality disoreders in 1995. This is hard to explain, at least for me. Most of my 50 years It's been one drug or another in my system. Most illegal. The past 11 years, scores of psych drugs. There are days that I feel good. Far & few in between, but it happens. I truly don't know what to do with myself on these rare days. I usually drink alcohol to put myself back down and in remorse where I'm more comfertable. Being a alcoholic with Hep C, drinking is not in my best interest. How horrible to say feeling good, does not feel good. Confused as always. Anybody else in this virtual world deal with this insane thinking? May all find peace today!
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