UGGGGGGGGGGG I hate feeling this way ..... I am So mad at myself right now and angry at the whole world ... I havent seen my Therpist in 3 weeks due to the surgery and I havent been able to get over the soreness of this damn operation. I am used to healing up real fast and being able to do things pretty much after a week or so ..... I have been so out of it that I have forgotten to take my lexapro on a regular time ... skipping days and wot not ... I have gained over 15 lbs since I have been home because all I seem to do is eat and sleep and be up all night ....... I HATE THIS ...... and to top it all off I ma mad at my husband .. everything he says leads to a screaming match and then hours of bickering back and forth..... The the toppper was tonite my incision is lightly bleeding and seeping ,,, and now matter how much I try to get up and go places and do things ... it seems to wear me out after a few hours ... then the pain kicks in ... OHHHH and the pain meds .... Notice the time .... it makes me have insomnia UP all night sleep all day GRRRRRR..... I go back to the surgeon on Tuesday and I think he wants me back at work on Wenseday But I just dont feel ready I really get wiped out after a few hours of being up running around ... I am sooo mad at my self for not healing as fast DAMN IT OK sorry about my rant its over and I still feel angry as hell over myself :(
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