Depression Support Group
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I have suffered with Major Relapses of Depression for 10+ years now.
I was diagnosed when i was 19 but i now know that i had been unwell for years before.
I am a really deep thinker and feel guilty for almost anything and it seems to hold me back in so many aspects of my life with family and friends.
There has always been a part of me that feels lost no matter how many friends i have who say they love me and care about me.
so many people have shown that their caring is only words that are meaningless but were the right thing to say at the time.
I always feel that nobody gets (even though there are a couple of people in my life who i know really care)!
So many people have got close to me only to hurt me and i feel so worthless - I just need something and im not what it is?
I was diagnosed when i was 19 but i now know that i had been unwell for years before.
I am a really deep thinker and feel guilty for almost anything and it seems to hold me back in so many aspects of my life with family and friends.
There has always been a part of me that feels lost no matter how many friends i have who say they love me and care about me.
so many people have shown that their caring is only words that are meaningless but were the right thing to say at the time.
I always feel that nobody gets (even though there are a couple of people in my life who i know really care)!
So many people have got close to me only to hurt me and i feel so worthless - I just need something and im not what it is?
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
How come you ask ?
I have self harmed in the past quite severely but havent in a few years now and i am battling to keep those feelings away !
I have always avoided counselling etc... cos i feel sooooooo stupid, pathetic, ashamed and always feel that people will get fed up of me so avoid those situations.
I feel the need to do something now but dont know where to start or who to turn to ?
Any advice?
I feel so lost............
I just feel all over the place and not in control of my thoughts.
Ive not felt this bad for a while and somewhere it scares me the thought of going back there!!!
I dont mean to sound selfish just hope someone will understand where i am comming from.......
sorry ur feelin so bad :(
part of wot u say sounds like me - n im a libra not a virgo or a leo lol ! :)
i think wot u need is the knowledge that the people in ur life that do really care ARENT gonna hurt u........n no1s ever 100% certain but uve just gotta trust em. uve already said you have a couple of people in your life who you know really care - that's half the battle !
in my opinion counsellings a good idea, but it might take a while to find the right person for you. i recommend going to your doctor and asking to see a Community Psychiatric Nurse (CPN) cuz they're alot more well equipped to deal with things to do with self-harm n depression than just a regular counsellor. saying that, try 2 get on a counselling list in your area anyway - no-one's gonna get fed up of u cuz they wuldnt do that job if they didnt wanna listen n help. n u might feel a little stupid talking about ur problems at first, but they would never MAKE u feel stupid, im sure theyd be the first to assure u that ur not stupid.
worth a try anyway ?
xxx
Not had much luck with my doctors in the past but have changed surgeries now so maybe it will be different.
Im just lost and not knowing what to do with myself or my feelings.
Just feel so stupid and pathetic for everything and worried that all i will do is burden people here.
I am sorry for comming here and just completely offloading cos i feel guilty for it........Just always feel in the way!
doctors can be complete pains - ive been thru a few lol mine NEVER listen, but there r genuinely nice ones owt there !
dont apologise about coming on here - ive only been coming to this site abowt 3days, n the first night i came here was cuz i was REALLY upset n typed "depression" in2 google.....n ive spoken 2 loads of ppl abowt my problems. theyve been rly supportive - most ppl here are happy 2 help as were all pretty much in similar boats. no one would be on here if they were completely happy right ?!
im sure ur not stupid OR pathetic....do u wanna chat abit ?xx
I still take the same medication that i have for the last 3 years (150mg daily of Effexor) and it helps but somethings not right as i always end up at rock bottom.
Thankyou for all your understanding