I met an amazing man and fell deeply in love with him. We're engaged and our wedding is later this year. But for a while now things have been going downhill. We fight constantly, and the fights get bad. He ends up telling me during every fight that it's my fault and I started it, he just said things he shouldn't in the middle of them. I've never had my self esteem dip so low, and I've never felt so worthless. It's been a few years since I've been in a depressive state, but in the past few weeks I've sunk into one. I love this man with all of my heart, and when things are good and we're getting along, he makes me happier then I've ever been. He has never physically abused me, and I wouldn't say he verbally abuses me either. Our fights just are making me feel so low, and he doesn't seem to care. He doesn't want to be around me after a fight, and he'll work around the house, or fall asleep (such as now). I feel lonelier then I've ever been in my life. I decided to take the "adult approach" to this relationship, and keep our problems to ourselves, and not drag my friends into it. I know it was the right decision, but now I have nobody to talk to. He won't/doesn't listen, and them simply says "Why don't you get help" when he does listen. I don't know what to do. I'm at a loss, and sinking deeper and deeper with every fight. I guess I just want support.
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