I just feel so alone right now I don't know what to do. I just feel like taking a bunch of something just to make all these icky feelings go away. My closeest friend just left to go home for like 3 months after just telling me she was leaving last night. I didn't even get a chance to say goodbye. She has good reason to go home but it still really hurts and leaves a huge hole in my life. On top of that theres alot of crap going on with my mental health and my meds. Some are convinced that I'm abusing drugs, some aren't. Some want me in a home, some don't. I'm scared half to death over a meeting on Tuesday with my counselor and social worker and support worker people about what to do about the problem of me, drugs and alcohol and I don't know where its going to go. I'm just under all this stress and don't know what to do about it. I want to cut so bad and just relieve this feeling. The only thing right now that I really seem to have going for me is my puppy.
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