Feeling sad, I miss my husband, yet I am afraid for him to come home. I am afraid that things will go back to the way they were, unhappy, and controlling. I don't like this feeling. Why am I being so selfish? Why can't I just be glad that things are great now, and we are working on making them even better? I am sad, frustrated with myself, and confused. I am just waiting for the other shoe to drop. Waiting for him to go back to controlling everything, being angry and disrespectful. Why do I feel this way? He told me that being away for the last month has really shown him what he could have lost, and what he took forgrandted. We really reconnected on my trip to Florida last week, I saw the man I married. So what is my problem?
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