As my first post back in this community, I am feeling miserable tonight. Talking to my daughter tonight and I get depressed when I talk to her. Her mother took her to Texas when we split up. The ex is making me pay for the round trip airfare for the kiddo to come and spend part of the summer with me. I am working at a good job, but making just enough to pay my rent and some of the bills. I don't have any extra to buy a plane ticket. It has been a year since I have seen her. I miss her so much it kills me that I can't see her. I am trying hardest not to cry, because I know it will upset her. I have missed her last two birthdays, she is 13 yo and stands 5' 8". I have missed her growing up. This just sucks so much. I hate her mother for doing this to me. I know that when I hang up the phone I am going to start bawling again. I think that I am better on the days when I forget my meds.
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